How to write a letter that will help you prepare for death and change your life. Melissa Nathan

Julius and Ethel Rosenberg. Last letter to sons

Julius and Ethel Rosenberg (USA) were accused of passing on information about atomic bomb Soviet Union. On April 5, 1951, they were sentenced to death penalty, and on June 19 they were executed by electric chair. On the day of their execution, they wrote this letter to their two sons.

Our dear ones, our most precious children, just this morning it seemed to us that we could meet again. But now this is not feasible. And I really want you to know everything that I learned. Unfortunately I can only write a few simple words, everything else should be taught to you by your life, just as mine taught me. At first, of course, you will grieve for us, but you will not be alone. This is what comforts us, and what should ultimately help you. One day you will realize that life is worth living. Know that even now, when our lives are slowly moving towards the end, our convictions are stronger than our executioners! Your life should teach you that good cannot flourish in the heart of evil, that freedom and all those things that make life truly worthwhile and true must sometimes come at a very high price. Know that we calmly accept the fact that civilization has not yet reached the point where life will not have to be sacrificed for the sake of life, and that we are comforted by the firm confidence that others will continue our work. We would like to enjoy life with you. Your father, who remains next to me during these last hours, sends you, our dear boys, all my heart and love. Always remember that we were innocent and could not compromise our conscience. We hold you close and kiss you with all our might. With love, Mom and Dad, Julius and Ethel Rosenberg

Melissa Nathan. Last letter to family

Melissa Nathan was popular English writer. In 2001, she was diagnosed with breast cancer. In April 2006, shortly after her son's third birthday, she died at the age of 37. Her last novel The Learning Curve was published after her death, in August 2006. Knowing that she would never see it published, Melissa used the book's opening pages to say goodbye to her family.

I found myself in unusual situation, knowing that this book will most likely be published after my death. So forgive me for the rather strange introduction. Firstly, I want to thank my wonderful parents. You have given me a life full of love, support and friendship. I was lucky enough to look both of you in the eyes as equals, and at the same time look up to you. Please don't ever think that my life was hard. I've had a great 37 years and I'm grateful to you both for what you've given me. I am happy and at peace with myself. My dear Andrew. I respect you as much as I love you, and that means a lot. If anyone can handle my departure, it's you. After all, you've lived with me for almost 12 years, and it's not that easy. I'm so glad I met you. You were my safe haven, my gentle giant, my best friend, my everything. I wish you a happy life full of love and joy. And you, my beautiful Sammy. I would like to get to know you better, my love, but this will not happen. And yet, despite the fact that you are only three years old, you have already left an imprint on my heart that will remain with me wherever I go. Motherhood has added value to my life. You gave this to me. What can a mother wish for her son? I wish you happiness. You have a wonderful father and a family that adores you. Go into the world knowing that you were my everything and that you won't have to deal with an annoying mom trying to kiss you when you turn 15. I will be in heaven kissing you from afar.

Captain Kuno. Last letter to children

Captain Kuno was a Japanese pilot and kamikaze volunteer who died in May 1945. Before his last flight, he wrote a letter to his children: his son (5 years old) and daughter (2 years old).

Dear Masanori and Kyoko, even though you cannot see me, I will always look at you. Listen to your mother and don't upset her. When you grow up, choose own way and become good Japanese. Don't be jealous that other children have fathers, because I will become a spirit and watch over you both. Study well and help your mother. I can't help you, so be each other best friends. I was an energetic person, I flew a big bomber and killed all the enemies. Please become better than me, this will avenge my death.

Wild Bill Hickok. Last letter to my wife

James Butler Hickok, known as Wild Bill, was a famous marksman and scout in the Old West. On August 2, 1876, he was playing poker. Entered the saloon former hunter to a buffalo named Jack McCall. He shouted “Get it!” and shot Bill point blank. Shortly before this, Bill had a bad feeling and wrote a short farewell letter to his wife.

Dear Agnes, if it happens that we do not meet again, then with my last shot I will tenderly pronounce the name of my wife - Agnes - and, wishing well even to my enemies, I will dive and try to reach the other shore.

Jacob Vowell. Last letter to family

On May 19, 1902, an explosion occurred in a Tennessee coal mine, killing 216 miners. Some of them survived the explosion and waited for help behind the rubble for some time. Jacob ended up in the mine with his 14-year-old son Elbert. Gasping for breath, he wrote a letter to his wife Ellen and his family.

Ellen, dear, we say goodbye to you. Elbert says the Lord will save him. Take care of our children. We are all praying for air to come out, but we are getting worse. Horace, Elbert says you can wear his shoes and clothes. I'm putting Paul Harmon's watch in the hands of Andy Wood. Ellen, I want you to live well and go to heaven. Little Elbert said he trusted the Lord. It's getting harder to breathe. Dear Ellen, I have left you poor, but I hope the Lord will help you raise my little children. Elbert said that he will meet you all in heaven, that all the children will meet us there. Please take care of them. Oh how I wish I could be with you. Goodbye everything, goodbye. Bury me and Elbert in the same grave as little Eddie. Goodbye Ellen, goodbye Lilly, goodbye Jimmy, goodbye Minnie, goodbye Horace. Oh god, another breath of air. Ellen, remember me while you live. Goodbye, darling. It's 25 minutes after two. Few of us survived. Jake and Elbert.

Ziyad Jarrah. Last letter to the bride

Ziyad Jarrah is a terrorist and one of the masterminds of the September 11, 2001 terrorist attack. He was 26 years old when he hijacked United Airlines Flight 93, which crashed into a field in Pennsylvania. On September 10, he wrote a long letter to his fiancée Aysel, who lived in Germany. She never received the letter because she moved. The post office returned it to the United States, where it fell into the hands of the FBI. On the first page of the letter:

I don't want you to be sad. I still live somewhere, although you cannot see or hear me, but I will see you and know what is wrong with you. And I will wait until you come to me. Everyone has their own time and everyone will leave one day. It is my fault that I made you hope for a wedding, marriage, children and a family... You should be proud of me, because this is a matter of honor, and you will see that everyone will be happy as a result... I did what I had to do.

Remember who you are and what is worthy of you. I hug you and kiss your hands and head. I thank you and apologize for the wonderful and difficult 5 years that you spent with me. Your patience... Allah... I am your prince and I will take you away. Goodbye! Yours forever.

Captain Robert Scott. Last letter to my wife

British Royal Navy captain and Antarctic explorer Robert Falcon Scott was returning from South Pole. Buran locked the expedition members in a tent; they suffered from hunger and cold. Scott was the last to die, having written a letter to his wife Caitlin.

To my widow Dear, beloved. It’s not easy for me to write because of the cold - 70 degrees below zero and only a tent for protection... We are at a dead end, and I’m not sure that we can cope. During a short breakfast, I take advantage of the small amount of warmth to write letters in preparation for my eventual demise. If anything were to happen to me, I would want you to know how much you meant to me. I have to write a letter to the boy, I hope when he grows up he will have time to read it. Honey, you know I don't like sentimental nonsense about remarriage. When a worthy man appears in your life, you should become happy again. Get your son interested in science if you can. It's better than games. Try to teach him faith in God, it consoles him. Oh my darling, my darling, how I dreamed of his future. And yet, my girl, I know that you can handle it. Your portraits will be found on my chest. I could tell you a lot about this journey. What stories could you tell our boy, but, oh, at what cost. Lose the opportunity to see your darling, cute face. I think there is no chance. We decided not to kill ourselves and fight to the end to get to the camp. Death in wrestling is painless, so don't worry about me.

Milada Gorakova. Last letter to family

Milada Horáková was a Czech politician and member of parliament. After the communists came to power, on September 27, 1949, Milada was accused of “preparing a sabotage plot.” She did not admit her guilt, was sentenced to death and hanged. Before her execution, she was allowed to write three letters: to her husband, 6-year-old daughter and mother-in-law. This is what she wrote to her child:

It's not that I love you too little, I love you as purely and passionately as other mothers love their children. But I understand that my task in this world was to... ensure that life was better and that all children could live better... Don't be afraid or sad because I won't come back anymore. My child, learn to look at life seriously as early as possible. Life is hard, it doesn’t caress anyone, but don’t let it defeat you. Choose to fight.

Sullivan Ballou. Last letter to my wife

This letter was written in 1861, a week before Major Sullivan Ballou of the 2nd Rhode Island Volunteers was killed at the Battle of Bull Run, the first major American land battle. civil war.

Dear Sarah! Everything suggests that we will hit the road soon, perhaps tomorrow. And since I will not be able to write to you, I feel that I must leave a few lines that may catch your eye while I am away. I have no doubts or distrust of the purpose for which we are fighting, and my courage has not dried up or diminished. I know that American civilization rests on the success of our government, and I know that we are indebted to those who went before us through the blood and suffering of the Revolution. And I wish, I sincerely wish, to leave the joys of life in order to support this government and pay off this debt. Sarah, my love for you is undying. She seems to bind me with chains that only providence can break. But still, my love for the Motherland is higher than me, it is like a strong wind that carries me with all these shackles to the battlefield. The memories of all the amazing moments I experienced with you overwhelm me and I am deeply grateful to God and you for enjoying them for so long. How hard it is for me now to leave them and burn to the ground hopes and future years, when, by the will of God, we could live and love further and see how our boys grow up worthy men Next to us. If I don't come back, my dear Sarah, never forget how I loved you, and that when my last breath escaped, it sounded your name… Forgive me for my sins and the pain I caused you. How thoughtless and stupid I was sometimes!.. But, Sarah, if the dead can return to this earth and hover invisible next to those they love, I will always be with you. And on the brightest day, and the most dark night… always always. And when the light wind touches your cheeks, it will be my breath, and when the cool air refreshes your forehead, know that it is my spirit that has flown by. Sarah, don't mourn for me - believe that I just left and wait for me, because we will meet again.

Mary, Queen of Scots. Last letter to Henry III, King of France

Mary Stuart, arrested on Elizabeth's orders, was sentenced to death for her participation in a conspiracy against the queen. On the morning of February 8, 1587, 6 hours before her execution, Mary wrote her last letter to her late husband's brother, King Henry III. In the message, she claimed that she was being punished only for her faith and for her right to the English throne, and also asked Henry to take care of her servants - when she was executed, they would be left without a livelihood. Her last letter ended like this:

I took the liberty of sending you two precious stones, a talisman against illness, hoping that you will live in good health for a long time and happy life. Accept them from your loving sister-in-law, who, as death approaches, testifies to her warm feelings for you. If it pleases you, give orders that for the sake of the salvation of my soul, everything that I bequeathed should be paid, and that, in the name of Jesus Christ, to whom I pray for you before I die, enough will remain so that a memorial service will be held for me and They gave, as is customary, alms to the poor. On Tuesday at two o'clock in the morning. Your most sensitive and devoted sister.

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Today's topic of our conversation does not promise to be easy. We're talking about suicide notes. And immediately associations with suicides arise. But in most cases, they are the ones who leave farewell messages. Let's talk about it.

Suicide note and suicide

Is a person who dies without permission weak or strong? How to decide on this? For most people this is simply not possible. Why is this happening? As a rule, the answers lie in dying messages. The cause may be illness unrequited love, a huge debt hole and many other circumstances. In them, suicides ask for forgiveness for their unauthorized death, or, conversely, blame someone for their death.

The number of young people who have passed away is growing every year. It's not just scary, but in most cases it can be avoided and prevented. You need to hear your children and participate in their lives. Internal changes and torment are difficult, you should not hide from problems, you need to solve them, help your child always and in everything.

The scary thing is that many teenagers spend a long time preparing for this incredibly unreasonable step. They watch forums, communicate with similar potential suicides, study information on how to correctly write a suicide note. But by their actions they warn of their intention to leave this world.

Let's talk about teen suicide

Young people aged 10-14 years commit suicide more often. However, it cannot be said that these are children from bad families. In 78% of cases it was found that they lived in decent conditions.

There is no clear answer to the question of why children take this terrible step. Psychologists, working with children who managed to survive a suicide attempt, have identified several main reasons:

1. Hopeless love. Adolescence- period of growing up. Children look at the world differently. They change physiologically when they leave the cozy home world. They begin to build different relationships with others. From the age of 12-13, children copy the character traits of people in whom they see their idol. Therefore, it is very important to remain a friend and, of course, a model of behavior for the child. The child must be confident that you will support him in any case, listen to him and give advice.
2. Loss of meaning in life. For whatever reason, a child may become self-absorbed and shut down. This could be problems with peers at school, bad relationships with family. And parents, not noticing the problem, will be happy that the child is calm and diligent. You need to feel your child, be interested in his life, and constantly talk.
3. Loneliness. A very common problem. Sometimes, for various reasons, children are left to fend for themselves. When parents disappear at work, and an old grandmother looks after the child. They lack attention. And then they begin to try by any means to turn it on themselves. And suicide is one of the means. The child is coming to the extreme so that his cry from the soul is heard, and in most cases he does not want death, but one cannot joke with it. A pretend death can become real.
4. Death out of spite. Children often manipulate their parents in this way if they do not buy or do something. Like, I’ll die to spite them, let them suffer.
5. Family dramas. Scandals and troubles that occur in front of children very often become the cause of suicide. They become depressed, the terrible stress they experience with unstable mental development, makes the situation worse. It's hard to deal with this problem on your own. It's even worse when in the middle of family drama the child unwittingly witnesses the words that he is a burden and a hindrance. In most cases, this becomes the last straw for taking a terrible step into the abyss, and the suicide note left behind is all that remains...

Parents, find time for your children, show you care, give love and affection. We devote so much attention to this issue because child suicide is a tragedy for all humanity. Suicide notes from teenagers ring a bell...

Alarm Signals

To never find terrible letters, you need to learn to see and hear your children. What to pay attention to:

1. Closedness. If a child sits at home, locked in a room, does not go outside, is not friends with anyone, and is taciturn with you. Communicate more, hug, kiss the child. The child must understand that he can always turn to you for help.
2. Indifference. The child is not interested in anything, is able to study well, but without enthusiasm, to fulfill the requirements, due to the lack own desires. Offer to do something, join a section or club. Having acquired a hobby, he will perk up and find meaning in life.
3. Simulating illness and making up scary diagnoses. In this way, the child conveys that he is lonely and in pain, but when you are nearby, it becomes easier. Then they gradually come to suicide and begin to scare people with it. But unfortunately, there are many cases when a faked death became real.
4. The most alarming call is when children talk and imagine how bad it will be for their family and friends without them. At first, they often think about suicide, but these are just thoughts at the level of imagination. The more often you turn them around in your head, the less absurd they seem. An idea grows into a thought form. One minor breakdown could be the last straw. If you notice these symptoms in a child, contact a competent psychologist.

There may be many reasons, but if you love your child, it’s hard not to notice them; just don’t turn a blind eye to alarm bells.

You ask, who is to blame?

Child psychologist O. Voroshilova, who treated children after suicide attempts, claims that the full blame lies with the parents. And in most cases it turns out that the children lived in families with a poor psychological climate.

It is important for the child:

1. Understand that there are no unsolvable problems.
2. To know that parents will always hear and understand.
3. Have confidence that when you come with grief, you will not reject it, but will support it, and will not read moral teachings.
4. So that his relatives take his problems seriously and with understanding.

You should be happy that the child turned to you, and not to a friend, and shared his happiness or misfortune. This means he trusts, and together we can overcome all difficulties. The main thing is to show the child that life is amazing and beautiful, and no matter what happens, there is a way out.

How do people decide to cross the line in life?

The statistics are terrible; over the past twenty years, about 800 thousand suicides have occurred in Russia, and the country is in second place in the world in terms of the prevalence of suicides. Men commit suicide more often than women average age male suicides - 45 years old, female suicides - 52 years old.

What is suicide? Causes

This is nothing more than an extreme way of escaping from oneself. A man at the moment of this deep personal crisis experiences severe emotional overload, and suicide is seen as the only (unreasonable) way out.

Suicide can be divided conditionally into accentuated and real. An imaginary suicide occurs in a state of passion, and the suicide note is not found at the scene of the tragedy. In most cases, such suicide does not end in death, because the person shouts out his inner pain and asks for help.

Real suicide is a carefully planned event. The dying message is written consciously and contains meaningful information. What pushes people to take this desperate step:

• unrequited love;
• family troubles;
• feeling of loneliness;
• serious illness;
• loss of a loved one;
• state of depression.

A suicide note may indicate who drove him to this extreme. So, the reasons:

• physical and moral bullying;
• bullying;
• rape;
• religious fanaticism;
• blackmail, slander, humiliation.

But this is punishable by law. This is stated in Article 110 of the Criminal Code of the Russian Federation “Incitement to suicide”. The World Health Organization has provided data that there is one suicide every 40 seconds in the world, and there are 20 times more attempts to commit suicide than deaths from suicide.

Let's talk about the dying messages of famous people

The presenter of the TV Center channel, Boris Notkin, passed away at the age of 75. He was found dead at a dacha in the Odintsovo region near Moscow. A note was found next to the body. What was written in Notkin's suicide note? It was the cause of his death. He voluntarily died because he was tired of suffering. He was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer in May 2017. Notkin's suicide note testified to his voluntary death.

The famous TV presenter decided not to suffer, because the disease turned out to be incurable, and to commit suicide. Nearby was found a suicide note from Boris Notkin and a hunting rifle, which he allegedly purchased for defense, from which the gunshot was fired. Boris Notkin's suicide note was discovered by his wife.

Another loud shock

The lead singer passed away in 1994 cult group Nirvana Kurt Cobain. After it was found suicide letter, written by the musician shortly before his death.

It was kept secret due to doubts whether it was his handwriting and when it was written. But Washington state authorities still made the contents public. suicide note Kurt, which is attached to the case materials.

His body, shot in the head, was found on the floor of his Seattle apartment four days after his death. The murder weapon lay on his chest. Cobain's suicide note was addressed to his fictitious childhood friend Bodde.

A large dose of heroin was found in the blood, but the police announced that the cause of death was a gunshot wound. Let's talk about the contents of Cobain's suicide note. But first, let us remember the facts of his biography.

What kind of rock idol is he?

Grew up in ordinary family, father is a mechanic, mother is a waitress. His interest in music arose at the age of two. His aunt and uncle were also musicians, and at the age of seven, Kurt received from them

As an eight-year-old boy, going through the divorce of his parents is very difficult. After this family drama, he becomes closed and even hostile. Cynicism manifested itself in his character. At first he lived with his mother, then his uncle committed suicide. Kurt loved him endlessly. Then he moved to Montesano to live with his father, but, not finding common language With new wife, left his house. As a teenager, he lived alternately with both parents.

Musician Warren Mason taught fourteen-year-old Kurt to play the guitar. After graduation for a long time the guy was hanging out, having fun with friends. In 1986, he got a job, and on the eighth day he was arrested for drinking alcohol on foreign territory.

Subsequently he organized musical group, which soon broke up. Then the group Nirvana was born. The music combined two styles: punk and pop. The group gained incredible popularity in 1991. The halls attracted thousands of spectators. His wife became their daughter.

The death of an idol

Since childhood, Kurt suffered from psychological disorders and was forced to take special medications. And also at a young age, he tried drugs and became interested in them, becoming truly addicted. Of course, his parents’ divorce had an impact, and his paternal uncles, alcoholics, mentally ill people who committed suicide, left their mark on his psyche.

The musician began using heroin and suffered a severe overdose. Friends persuaded him to go to a clinic for rehabilitation, but he ran away from it.

On April 8, 1994, a friend discovered him in house dead. Fans continue to believe that a murder was committed.

Kurt Cobain's suicide note in Russian had the following meaning

The beginning tells that he has lost the meaning of life and his love for music. Kurt talks about his shame about this, writes that standing backstage when the roar of the crowd explodes, his heart does not skip a beat. That he doesn’t have the same passion for his work as Freddie Mercury, who appreciated every second spent on stage, loved the audience and basked in their applause. He opens his soul, turns himself inside out, saying that he is unable to deceive his viewer. He doesn’t want to pretend anymore and go on stage, the time has come to leave it. Screaming about great love to people, fans, shows his humanity. His emotional condition brought to the boiling point of no return.

He remembered his wife and daughter in the letter. He expressed boundless love for them. Conducted a subtle psychoanalysis of seeing myself in my daughter. Frances is a dead rocker and becomes self-destructive and miserable like him. He is grateful for his good life, but marks the seven-year mark of the psychological breakdown of a child’s soul, about hatred and love for humanity. He considered himself too impulsive and predictable. Having lost his passion, he chose a bright and short life, in fact, boring, meaningless and long. These were his last words in a letter. He expressed his love for his wife and daughter and asked his wife to never give up for Frances, whose life would be better without him.

After the death of the great musician, his diary gained enormous popularity, whose quotes became just as legendary. People's suicide notes indicate the loss of a loved one, a friend, an idol. Reading them, you understand that the person is no longer there, only lines remain.

Mikhail Zadornov

Quite recently it disappeared outstanding writer and satirist Mikhail Zadornov, he left us at 69 years old. He was a member of the Russian Writers' Union and published more than a dozen books. He was the author and presenter of many television programs, in particular such as “Full House” and “Laughing Panorama”.

A year ago he was diagnosed with a brain tumor. He published in social network“VKontakte” information that for this reason the concerts are canceled. After a course of chemotherapy in a Berlin clinic, Zadornov underwent rehabilitation in the Baltic states. The disease could not be overcome. They decided to stop the painful treatment.

On November 10, 2017, the great satirist Mikhail Zadorny passed away. He said that all treatment methods have already been tried, nothing helps. Last will I began to want to go to Jurmala and live out my life there in peace, surrounded by loved ones.

Zadorny’s suicide note is less a message than a demand, in which he outlined three wishes:

• Save the library Nikolai Zadorny in Riga, do not stop financing it.
• The second desire was the will to be buried in my father’s grave.
• Transport the body by land transport.

The legendary satirist Mikhail Zadornov will remain forever in our hearts.

About the dying message of V. Mayakovsky

The death of the poet remains a mystery to this day, whether he left this world himself or was helped to do so. Let's talk about the contents of the poet's suicide note, which dates back to 1930. He wrote the message two days before his death. At first, doubts arose whether this letter was his, since it was written in pencil, with practically no punctuation marks. It was later determined that it was genuine.

So, what was written in Mayakovsky's suicide note? great poet asked not to blame anyone for his death and not to speak badly about him after his death, saying that the dead do not like this. He asked for forgiveness from relatives and friends, warning that this was not a solution, and this should not be done, but not in his case. He also ordered in a letter that his creations be given to the Brick family. And he also said about 2 thousand rubles in his desk to pay the tax, the rest he ordered to get from Giza.

This letter allows us to conclude that Mayakovsky was a responsible person. It would seem that he is passing away from life, after death it doesn’t matter, but he was worried about his relatives.

This message caused a lot of controversy. Why did he mention there in the same row with close people, thus setting up married woman? But there was an explanation for this: the poet wanted to secure her financially, and everyone knew about their connection.

Another interesting fact. He writes, Lilya Brik, love me. But everyone knows that there has been no love for a long time, and in general, she never loved the poet. Yet he leaves his legacy in her hands, because she, like no one else, understood his work, was very insightful and had great connections.

The poet wanted his creations to survive and live. That's why he entrusted them to the Bricks. And there is a phrase that confirms this, they say, let's forget all the strife and resentment, and love me after I leave.

The letter also contained a quatrain, the first lines of which, logically, should be addressed to Lilya Brik. He wrote that the event had exhausted itself, the love boat was broken into everyday life. I decided to leave, so there is no room for mutual insults and reproaches. But we are still not talking about her. Lilya lived in excellent conditions, rowed everything to myself. And in difficult moments the poet's life, when he needed support, left him. The Brik family went to London to live with Lilia's mother.

When the fatal shot rang out, Lily and her family were not around. But they managed to arrive on April 16 in time for the funeral. After which Lilya burned all the letters that he kept. She destroyed a great treasure, evidence of the poet’s life, pages of his biography.

She also confiscated the diary, published some fragments, and then completely banned it, just like her diaries.

If "love boat" does not refer to the spouse, then what did the poet mean? Maybe this is connected with the main version of suicide? After all, so many troubles befell him overnight, maybe he just couldn’t stand it, which led to nervous breakdown and such an outcome.

Could failures bring the great poet to his death? Most likely not, throughout his life he was attacked, and most severely. And not only from the outside literary critics, but also friends. And the authorities did not like his poetic thinking and style. He learned to fight back in arguments and knew how to defend himself. IN farewell letter still turns to Ermilov, thereby expressing a desire to continue discursive strife. Therefore, failures could not lead to such a critical state. Moreover, new works were written.

Maybe, we're talking about about unhappy love. There was a third woman in his life whose marriage the poet did not want to believe. Fate separated them. She went to France and stayed there. The situation in the country did not allow a return. She relied on the almighty Mayakovsky, but he himself could not bring the lady of his heart to the most modest penates, especially when such changes were taking place in the country: prices rose, Stalin canceled the NEP, the shelves in the stores were empty, and she got used to a different life, yes and what will he do in the USSR?

Mayakovsky was afraid of a stray bullet and being left alone. Nora lived for her theater, Lilya didn’t like it at all, and, alas, it didn’t work out with Tatyana. love boat crashed into everyday life...

On April 14, early in the morning, I sent a telegram to Tatyana Yakovleva in France, saying that today the poet Vladimir Mayakovsky shot himself in Moscow.

Hello! Hello everyone alive! Writes to you American soldier. I was killed in battle. I'm better here than you are there - in this world.
I have remained young forever and will never know old age, illness, disappointment...
I was killed by a Russian grenade thrown by a Vietnamese hand. This happened near Danang on June 12, 1965.
We, eight Marines, squatted in the trench and talked - enjoying the silence after the battle - about girls
about their love affairs, when a Russian grenade suddenly flew into our trench like a stone...
She lay like a peaceful green toy in the middle of our company... But I knew that we all had eight seconds left to live... One second for each Marina...
At the third second I woke up first... My Assyrian-Russian reaction worked. Fear did not have time to bind me.
Friends had to be covered.

I'll digress.
Born in Iran in 1945...
Mom is Assyrian, and dad is a Russian refugee from Moscow.
He dreamed of becoming a Russian design pilot, but became an Iranian engineer: he built railways, bridges cut tunnels in the mountains.
Russian speech was absorbed into me with the language of my parents. At home we spoke only Russian.
I was seventeen when we left for permanent residence in the United States of America.
There were problems at customs: for some reason they wouldn’t let my Italian accordion - “Moreshi” through. Handsome - one hundred and twenty basses!.. Sounds like a full orchestra!..
-Are you bringing it for sale? - the customs officer asked sternly.
- No! For myself.
- How can you prove this?
- And here’s what!..
I opened the huge case and my favorite was born - the brilliant, sonorous "Moreshi" ...
He easily threw the straps over his shoulders, threw his fingers on the keyboard and casually went through the chromatic scale from top to bottom, returned upstairs and..., sighing, pulled out "Dark Eyes"...
People came running from all sides of the huge hall.
Customs stopped work... Passengers, police officers, customs officers crowded together...
After the fifth thing, we were allowed into America with applause. I immediately fell in love with this country. It’s clean all around and there are a lot of smiles.
We settled on Fifteenth Avenue in San Francisco.
I had no problems with English.
Mom spoke freely without an accent. She graduated from the American College in Tehran.
It was difficult with money and I got a job as a musician in the Russian restaurant "Renaissance" - on Gehry Boulevard.
During the day he worked as a janitor - a cleaner at the airport,
and in the evening he played custom-made Russian and American music.
Opposite the restaurant there was a recruiting office Marine Corps. Every day I walked past great photos I envied him and dreamed of a handsome Marine Corps soldier dressed in a bright dress uniform: when I turn eighteen, I will wear the same uniform!..

A year later I opened the doors of the recruiting office.
It wasn't until my third exam that I was given the great honor of serving as a volunteer in the elite Marine Corps.
I am a Marine!..I was proud and happy.

The harsh course of a ruthless fighter took place at a boot camp in San Diego in southern California. The war seemed to us like a rest after round-the-clock training. There we crawled in swamps among leeches, survived in the desert, learned to eat mice, snakes and others that are not eaten in peaceful life, creatures.

A year later we landed on the island of Okinawa and, after grueling maneuvers, flew to Da Nang. We were immediately thrown into battle.
For five months we did not crawl out of the bloody meat grinder.
During the day the Vietnamese dug trenches for us and at night they shot at us.
In the sixth month of my war, a Russian grenade thrown by a Vietnamese hand suddenly flew into our trench like a stone.
I woke up from my obsession in the third second...
It was hot and stuffy... The removed bulletproof vest lay near my feet. Seeing the deadly toy - there was no time to think - I instinctively threw my body armor over the grenade and pressed it to the ground with my body... I didn’t have time to get scared. The grenade exploded, pressing the bulletproof vest into my stomach...

I was still alive when my body was taken out of the battlefield on an armored personnel carrier... We lay as bandaged mummies on the armor of an infantry fighting vehicle, which tacked, sideways, zigzag, covering us with its side from the machine gun fire of the Viet Cong, slowly moved in the aisle minefield to the helipad...
From time to time I could still hear Kalashnikov bullets hitting the armor... Then came dull darkness.
I died in Sikorsky - on board a transport helicopter as huge as a railway carriage...
My pain died with me.

I was two weeks shy of my twentieth birthday and ten days shy of returning home to San Francisco.
My dream of going to university, getting married and having a whole pack of little Georgians - boys and girls - my children, who would dance to the music of my accordion: what a handsome man - one hundred and twenty basses!.. And it sounded like!.. An orchestra died along with me. !..

After my death, my commander wrote a letter to my mother saying that before I died, I killed more than a dozen Charlies...
Charlie-Charlie-Charlie Chaplin... This didn’t make Mom happy. Each “Charlie” had his own favorite mother.
"Charie-Charlie"! That's what we called all the Vietnamese for their short stature... And their gait is funny, like Charlie Chaplin’s, only instead of a bowler hat they have a conical straw hat.
Little people, how many of our guys were killed!..

I was brought to San Francisco and laid in the ground - in an even row with my other comrades under a small white column in the military cemetery in San Bruno. The Marinas fired a farewell salvo into the air and comfortingly handed the Stars and Stripes flag to their mother... But the mother did not stop crying...
Then I, in full dress uniform, appeared to my mother in a dream and, smiling, said: Mom!.. Don’t cry!.. I feel good here!... Only your tears depress me...
I consoled my mother and left forever.

My "Charlie", who threw a grenade into our trench and killed me, was my peer. He was wounded in that battle, but survived. After the war he immigrated to the States and settled on Forty-fifth Avenue, San Francisco; bought a gas station on Balboa Street and lived happily ever after. My killer has a big family. My mother, after my father died, moved to Forty-sixth Street.
My "Charlie" already has grandchildren. He often walks with him in Golden Gate Park... When meeting my mother, he bows, smiles, happily waves his hand at my mother... She is his client. But both of them do not know that I always stand invisibly between them - United States Marine Corps Private George Lazarus, an American Marine of Russian-Assyrian origin, killed by this very hand, which forty years later peacefully, kindly and joyfully greets my beloved, forever heartbroken mother.

They opened with with great difficulty. It was necessary to click on a special square at the bottom of each page in order for the pages to acquire a recognizable appearance. If we consider this document to be authentic, then its author is the now deceased former deputy of the State Duma (1996-1999) from the LDPR faction. He was killed in Cyprus in March 2004. His name was heard in the trial of Yuri Kolchin and Vitaly Akishin, the killers of Galina Starovoitova, who were subsequently sentenced for a terrorist act. My commentary on the death of Shevchenko can be read on the Radio Liberty website http://www.svoboda.org/ll/crime/0404/ll.040104-1.asp.

The name of Vyacheslav Shevchenko appeared in many scandalous stories and he was repeatedly accused in various crime chronicles. After he and his “colleagues” in the “team” did not get into the next State Duma in the 1999 elections, former State Duma deputies from the LDPR Shevchenko, Glushchenko and Monastyrsky moved to live outside of Russia (deputy immunity ended, and problems with the law remained).

Mr. Shevchenko was not personally acquainted with Galina Vasilyevna Starovoytova. Only two facts are known that may indicate an absentee conflict: St. Petersburg journalists complained to Galina Starovoitova about the extortion of large sums of money by the Shevchenko brothers from correspondents of various publications who dared to expose the fake group that performed at the Shevchenko brothers’ club “Hollywood Nights.” Galina Starovoitova publicly accused LDPR deputies of racketeering. Later (after the death of Galina Starovoytova) a criminal case appeared on this fact and the brother of Vyacheslav Shevchenko, deputy of the Legislative Assembly of St. Petersburg, Sergei Shevchenko, was sentenced by the court for this crime to 7 years of suspended imprisonment. The second fact is again connected with Vyacheslav’s brother, Sergei. He spoke live on St. Petersburg television and, without embarrassment, answered the host’s question: “Are you a bandit?”, he smiled brazenly. Galina Starovoitova cited this fact as an illustration of the fact that in St. Petersburg crime is not afraid of anything, is not shy and strives to seize legislative power.

Now, a few thoughts about the “suicide note”. Journalists who once interviewed Vyacheslav Shevchenko are not inclined to believe that he shone literaryly. In mentality, he stood closer to the merchant layer of a specific Russian business those times. Therefore, linguistic and stylistic analysis“suicide note” makes you wonder if Mr. Shevchenko himself wrote it? Isn’t this a good stylization for him, or did Mr. Shevchenko use the services writing person? His thoughts about the scoundrel “who doesn’t put human life“nothing,” a certain amount of lyricism and pathos, do not fit with what the alleged author of the “suicide note” did during his lifetime.

However, information about the existence of this text has been circulating in St. Petersburg for two years. Moreover, some people had already read it, and on that copy, on every page, there was the signature of Mr. Shevchenko (as they assured knowledgeable people- genuine). We saw this document in one edition, but were afraid to publish it because of the reality of lawsuits and the even greater prospect of extrajudicial continuations of this story.

To understand whether Mr. Shevchenko could have written this text, it was necessary to find at least some texts that came from the “pen” of the former State Duma deputy from the LDPR. It took a long time to search and, in addition to the testimony of Vyacheslav Shevchenko, the investigator of the St. Petersburg prosecutor's office, Mrs. Litvinova, in 1999 (in the case of the murder of the vice-governor of St. Petersburg Mikhail Manevich), published by Novaya Gazeta in 2001 http://2001.novayagazeta. ru/nomer/2001/71n/n71n-s02.shtml, nothing else could be found. An analysis of this testimony and a comparison with the “suicide note” allows us to conclude that Mr. Shevchenko sometimes willingly “confessed.”

In connection with the murder of Galina Starovoitova, the author of the “suicide note” names a very real, existing citizen from the leadership of the LDPR, thereby extending the chain from the perpetrators terrorist attack, to the technical organizers, intermediaries and customers of this crime. I note that the “suicide letter” appeared even before the court verdict against Kolchin and Akishin, who were sentenced to 20 and 23 years in prison, respectively.

Is this document credible? Some texture gives reason to think that Vyacheslav Shevchenko could have participated in its preparation, but the narrative artistry is alarming. There are no further comments about this “letter”. Let law enforcement agencies deal with this.

P.S. Information about the arrest in Spain of the supplier of weapons for the murder of Galina Starovoytova is here.

Vyjeyanthi Periyakoil, a clinical associate professor at Stanford University and director of the Stanford Palliative Care Program, has developed a letter template to say goodbye to friends and family and tell them how much they mean to you. This template contains seven points that should help you write a letter that can make the death a little easier.

Periyakoil worked for many years with terminally ill patients and often found herself acting as a mediator between patients and their loved ones, helping both express their worries, hopes and regrets. She realized that sometimes this requires outside help.

That’s how she came up with the idea of ​​a letter to her loved ones. She created a template in eight languages ​​so that people from different corners the world could talk about their feelings and say goodbye to their families.

Letter template to loved ones

1. Give thanks important people In my life.
2. Write down your most treasured memories.
3. Ask for forgiveness from those you have offended.
4. Forgive those who have offended you.
5. Thank your loved ones for their love and care.
6. Tell your family and friends how much you love them.
7. Say goodbye.

It is useful for everyone to write such a letter.

Writing such a letter when you are young and healthy can have a positive impact on different aspects life.

The way you communicate with loved ones will change. It will become easier for you to discuss not only death, but also any other topics that previously seemed taboo.

In addition, writing such a letter will help you calm down. Even if something happens to you, your family will know how you feel.

Some items are not suitable for everyone

Although the purpose of the template is to make it easier to say goodbye to loved ones, the process of writing the letter itself is very difficult. You may have to write several drafts before you can fully express your thoughts and feelings.

This letter template is not suitable for everyone. During her work, Periyakoil discovered a group of people who were convinced that talking about their own death, especially saying goodbye, would spell their doom.

Many also commented on Periyakoil in the New York Times. Some people believe that they have no right to forgive anyone because only God can forgive. Others are sure that there are grievances that cannot be forgiven.

Be that as it may, you are not at all obliged to follow all the points exactly. Choose what is especially important to you personally and write your letter.